midunam, man tu in kar bayad bare aghel budano tanhayi be dush bekesham

say mikonam chizayi ke baraye khodam ajibish ajib nabud ro be zabun biaram azin jahat ajib nabud ke zarari be kesi nemiresunan,zebelie mane ke chi inja bezaram, ya chizayi ke kari be kare kesi nadaran ya chizayi ke arzeshe hameye yek feshare shabaneruzie bozorgo dashte bashan, dar gheire in surat etefaghayi miofte ke migam,bazi vaghta hese badi dashtam bekhatere kelisheyi budane karam engar faghat javabe matalak hayike ke az divae kucheye poshty shenide mishod ro baraye khodam midam,harchand ke zarif bashan, har ghadr ham ke zirakane.mikham kari konam ke zahmat bekhateresh keshide shode bashe,in bekhatere adaye dein nis, bekhatere ghani shodane proje ham nis.

dealm mikhat ruye keso kesayi kar konam barashun harf bezanam , ke hasasiateshuno doros bad az yek trauma az dast dadan...va har lahze emkan dare ke tasmimgiriaye bozorgo bokonan traumas faghat ye bar etefagh nemioftan
gemunam kamkam be marhaleyi residam ke dige nemigam eshgh baram ye vazheye gharibe va man az kolli guyi badam miat
mikham begam chia didam ke unayi ke eshgh daran , asib nemibinand... faghat be in fek nakon ke be koja naresidi, be in fek kon ke age in nabudi ine bozorg nabudi ta nabudie khodet pish mirafty..
delam mikhat az

vali hame chiz 1:faghat sharti shodan o kamel sharti nashodan nis, engar baraye kheiliha chiza avaz mishan va afrade addi dalilesho gom mikonan, khoedehshuno tori dargirmikonan ke yadeshun mire... chun be chizaye behtari reside budan.. mano to tu kheili az chizaye ensanimun injuria nabudim, systeme fekri tori bud ke faghat dayereye bazi bozorgtar mishod.
pas manteghie ke baghie ino mobham bedunan ke age be un ruzi ke mortakebe eshtebah shodin bargardin,mitunin sharti sazi ro avaz konim,hala ke shode chi? shahro tark konim?
2:focus kardan ruye jaduha jaye hasasiati ke ghablan dashtim kheili bade, jaduha yek lahze and, kudaki motehayyer mishavad, bavar peida mikonad va bad farmanravaha avaz mishavand



rajebe ye system hayi shenidam , harfa o karayi ke mishe ru har kodoom kar kard
vali vaghean in khataro hes kardam ke yeho bozorg misham , va dige hich vaght range ye chizayi az bachegimo hes nakhaham kard...

yechize dige ham hast, fek mikonam unayi ham ke group darmani mikonan ye boohayi azash bordan va bad bekhatere manafe'eshun khodeshuno zadan be oon raho faramush kardan
vaziate fard bad az pishnahad shodane ye donyaye azim va tahte tasir gahrar dadanesh va tavane porsesh ro azash boridan, ya be ebaraty uno mojab kardan ke fek kone hameye soalasho porside .
man ghasdam in bud ke neshun bedam chetor bazi az karayi ke baraye bimar mikonan ke arameshesho be dast biare, dar bishtare mavaghe dar deraz modat baraye fard moshkelayi ro ijad mikone
inke unja hameye soalha javab dade mishan o hame chi kamel pish mire az in kar alal osul jelogiri mikone
nemidunam age began ye ensha dar morede khial benvis chi migam tush, midunam bazia mitunan uno freeze konan va bad tosifesh konan, va bazia na,bazia khalas mishan o bazia na. midunam baese taghyir tuye grammer mishe

fek mikonam unayi ke daem dargire tavahomha hastan-farghe khialo tavahom ine ke yekish freeze mishe-divoonehaye vagheyi chun dige nemitunan sarkeshi konan,majburan dardesho
tu chizaye digeyi be dush bekeshan chizayike monjar be bishtar shodan etavahomeshun mishe,ke albate be tore zaheri sarkeshishun be dalayele pisho pa oftadeye digeyi bar migarde
az bein bordane sarkeshi dar deraz modat be had shodane bimara monjar mishe

bishtar tuye in bis si ta tasavir ke hanuz kameal nakhundameshun deghat mikonam,(asan nakhundameshun:P)shayad lazeme chizayi behesh ezafe beshe, niruha
melpomene heras va baghie,
ps:chemidunam goftam shayd jaleb bashe tu group darmani bazi vaghta khareji harf bezanan bazi vaghta maadari,in az bein raftane zaman ghashangtarin herbeyi bud ke ma tajrobe kardim(jadid niss??)
tasmim dari dastan zendegie ahmaghaye bisavadi ro begi ,ya baraye una begi ??,albate ke in komak mikone ke marz haro hefz konim.
khob taze daram dargir misham, bazi moshahedatamo goftam jaye khalie kheili chiza beinesh ehsas mishe
i wish you could not understant partially

nemidunam bayad begam ya nagam va hich ghasdo manzuri nadaram ,baraye khodamam ke badan mikhunam, man diruz baraye avvalin bar fahmidam az rahe sex mishe be khoda resid,in jayi baraye goftan dare, na?

azyatam, be har chizi mikham etemad konam,ye jayi ke vaysam baraye raftan na pedal zadan. be hich chi nemitunam dastamo tekyegah konam..
haselesh mishe hamin avvailn pok ba ye dust ke ba labkhand sigar mikeshe, ye ketabe ravanshenase filsuf ke hameye
dideto kurkurane shekl mide,tojihet nesbat be gonah...
dud... suratbandie ye ghanune kolli dar morede jense mokhalef ke az dahane yeki az adamaye tuye ashpazk khune dar miat ,kenar keshidane to. va khalvatat ke tasadofan hamun lahze niazdari yeki olguye zendegit beshe.tazalzol bishtar takid mikonad :harki.
miat
dami ke faghat mikhay benshini va gush bedi,beshinio gush bedio kesi kari nadashte bashe nafahmi, mese ye sarmayeye mariz bayad hamishe dar pompazhe gardesh bashi.
va un posht un tu ,to va hameye basteganet ba sherafat azaat ro bi saroseda jashn migirin..ta inke ruzi khodet baraye avvalin bar bu bekeshi poshtesh khabare varshekastegit elam beshe, dar amad to ba kharjet ke vasat mizari birun nemikhune,dige sekke nemigiri va cheshmhayat ..to ...dast az saram bardarin ra pusha mikonand ,be durugh baz shodan shuru mishavad,un posht soali baraye edameye zistan nist
hame ghabl az porsidan koshte mishavand,jayi baraye angize nist.va zaman por mishavad az makani baraye ebarathaye soali ke be eshtebah ba niaz por mishavand.chekkasi tora mibinad?
yekseda be tamashagaran miguyim :dar owj kenar mikeshim.
be durugh dasthaye hamdigar ra mifesharand. be durugh be kasani ke barayeshan dast takan midahad negah nemikonand,ba mashine az pish tayin shode ta hotel miravand.digar aanha anha nabudand.chizi budand az jense faramushie tasmime nagoftan.
hame be eshgheshan sehe migzarand.

yekseda miguyand:
kenar mikeshim

protest

yadame karroobi umad tu monazere be moosavi darumad gof man ye soal daram be onvane akharin harf shoma khodetuno vase sharayete sakht amade kardid?musavi javabesh dad : man khodam nokhost vazire 8 sal jang budam... mogheyi ke bomb ru sare mardom mibarid
...proteste man ine... ebtezal...chand vakhte ke bejaye inke bekham karaye bozorg konam, mikham bozorg basham .tu didam, mahv mishan,asan vared nemishan,protestam be in bikhialie
proteste man, ine ke age velam konan ruzha tu hamin vaz mimunam, protestam ine ke mania nemiaram goftan vase dars bade dige ine ke japayi nemibinam...proteste man ine ke jeloye yeki dige ye juri budan bade
protesteman vafadar budan be sonathayie ke tu ru darvasi gir mikardim. proteste man azadie bayano andishast... proteste man kame kam be ayandeye vazehe. proteste man daste kam baraye jaheshe,takamoleproteste man...

negahe ye bachast ke taze dare mifahme doro varesh che khabare
protestam niazayian ke sarkub kardam sarkub mishan,kheili narazi nistam.proteste man .khodamam, az farte in hame zibayi protestam faghat be talkhie duri nis,bavar nakardano fasele ro hefz kardan bahashe ...proteste man negaranie bavaresh,hesesh unjuri ke has. protestam jazbeshe,protestam gahi yek kalamas:... gheire eradi.aya bayad tanha o naghes hesesh konam ta moteghed shode baraye ruze margesh chalesh konam?engar ba har bar mordan ,dobare chizi zende mishavad.
protestam darke baghie az vajeye javuni, tabahi o pirie,mifahmii??? ...
proteste man o negaranim az in bi tafavotye

protestam be khafe shodane un bi mahaba baziayiye ke shuru kardim

nabayad dar moredeshun harf zad?

proteste man be in dadgahe ine ke shayad mitunam divooneh besham ,vali tafre miram
proteste man be hameye ayandeyiye ke bedune shak kheili dir mano mahkum mikone be bi ehsasi

چیزی که مهمتره اون چیز نیست ، که با توجه به سوژه، مهمه...


رییس شمایین تو کنترل اتفاقای زیر دست...ه ه

music parade 1

یه چیزی کوچولو (نه اون گنده منده یی که به نظر می رسه)،تو دل این باید عوض بشه،چه جوری؟
1: ذاتا خودشو تغییر نمی ده
2: روستایی قصد سواد آموزی-خواندن و زیاد کردن گوسفنداش می کنه
کمرشو سفت می کنه(به علاوه ی لباس هاش)تا دقت محاسباتشو بیشتر کنه و پروژه های بزرگتری رو سازماندهی کنه.دستاشو تکون می ده که نه،بیشتر بخوام،حسی پیدا می کنم.... ادامه می دم! درسته همین کارا و باید قبول کرد بیشتر تلاش کردن روزی نتیجه می ده،باید بیزنسم...،سرمایم و... این حرف ها
کلمه یی اضافه هست؟
im just a beginner!

بازیچه

baziche

kheili ham khub...nemiduna, chera bargashtam, be che hadafi bargashtamnemidunam weblog nevisi ru che olguyiye,nemidunam harfe tazeye man chie,nemidunam hameye un idehayike dar morede ye webloge kheili khafan dashtamtarhike mikhastam berizam chi shod,esmesh santr bud..mogheyi k ein ja balad nistam ye shudui nesbat be kolle ghazie dashte basham, nemidunam man avazshodamman ziad shodam, pahn shodam, keshide shodam,seft shodamnemidunam vase umadan be inja durbinamo begiram bebaram rusta hesam mese rustayiyayi mimuneke avaz nemishan,vali zendegi mikonan,midunam harfe jaleb daram, vali nemidunam che chize "mamoliyi" goftanesh arzesh nadare.nemidunam , manie tanhayi chie, mikham begam chizi has tu donya ,ke vaghty soraghesh miri, harfa o heshato tu ye mogheyate dige tajrobe mikoni,tu nakhod agahet nis.budan o nabudane tanhayi be in marbute be nazaram.
tuye mahiate fahm,fekresho k ebokoni kheili harfa o fekraye ajibi poshtemun has, has hala bayad...nemidunam hadaf bisavvadie ya na...har chi has, inja sakuyi vase aksolamalegahi hes mikonam alan mishe kheili rahata chizayi ro yad gereft ke hameye rahe adam ro moshtagh kone.ghabl az inke forsati baraye fekr kardan bokoni...
khubish ine ke tahe namato nemikhat bebandinemidunam chejuri ba che harfayi mishod inja ro shuru kard,bade kolli,injaro kesayi mikhunan ke mikhan vase khalaghiatashun ide begiran ,kheili ahmaghanas ke be ina begzare, un santr mitunes kheili khubo gonde bashe,chera hamishe man bayad rahamo khodam peida konamo hich ki komak nakone?yeki ham hamishe az in ghazie su estefade karde ,khiale khodesho rahat karde.
va hala zaminamma avaz shode, ye malghamas, unmogheha lulehaye sardo garm budan, alan hamechiz velarme,durugh ke nadarim, bazi chiza ham garme,sard nadaram....in luleha kheili ru fek kardane adam asar dashtan,baghie ham migan.?

dardamo yadam nemimune,key in ruzmaregi baram tekrari mishe?